Author Archives: Tanya Rana

Like Halsey once said, "If I can't have love, I want power"

Accepting It

Today, I saw you with her again,

Hand in hand, walking all sweetly

Your face was glowing like a bulb,

My body twisted in response.

Chest ached; belly dropped!

But this time, my mind didn’t fight,

This time, no more making it right,

This time, I won’t give you any looks,

No, this time, no more mind stories to cook.

And it’s not because I am so strong,

I have never been strong when it comes to you

Its because I’m getting so weak,

Maybe its time to accept the truth!

Cause I’m tired of trying,

Trying every day every night.

I guess its enough, it hurts to realize,

Its just me coming back for you every time.

Its so sick how one day we’re perfect,

And next day we are barely strangers.

And its sick how every now and then,

Its only me whose putting on these efforts.

And I didn’t know how much more I can take,

Inside, I am already in pieces.

And all you ever do is sit there, 

And watch me burn to ashes.

But now I feel really tired buddy,

You see, I don’t try it anymore.

I guess eventually I am accepting it,

Though I should have accepted it long before! 

-by Tanya Rana

Men Versus Men

Sometimes when you sit down to think for a while and you think about your surroundings in a mature, grown-up way, you realize not all places are safe for you. Especially when you are a woman. And I know you’ll feel like I am too big of a feminist while reading this but I solely believe that both genders are meant to be equal. Or are they? I don’t really think in its favor.

How long do you think we can hide our weaknesses behind these silly excuses of equality? We know we are not as strong as we show. We know they are stronger, be it muscularly, strength-wise or even determinition-wise. No, I don’t mean to hurt the feelings of my beloved feminists. But that’s true. There are things that we, as a whole gender, that is, females, are not good at. Yes, we too as everyone have come up with exceptions but the large mass is yet the same. So, this totally means that these ‘men’ who are actually stronger than us, can force us into doing things that we wouldn’t like otherwise. Not only bullying but some more hideous things like rapes and burning us alive and we probably don’t have any means to escape that. Or… do we?

Maybe. Let’s think further. We talked about the devil inside a man but, do they have good sides too? Well fortunately, yes. And this is what goes in our favor. To protect us, we know there are men always beside us. Be it our blood-relations or our almost family-friends. They are with us to protect us, nourish us and care for us.

Which actually means it has never been about us! It’s a ‘men versus men!’. We have men beside us and men against us. And these men beside us, who are loyal enough, will fight. Believe me, they will. No, not to show their strengths but to actually protect us because ultimately, they love us! They do!

We females, we are not really worthless, the way some of these hypocrites make us feel. We are important to maintain a balance in this world because obviously, men wont bear men themselves!

So maybe somedays you feel insecure, so just have faith in yourself and the ones you love and the ones that love you because maybe they are devils but they DO care for us! 

I Have Questions!

There were days, good days, 

When I felt so good around ya!

Now there are days, just days,

I don’t feel a thing about ya!

You know what hurts me so bad?

I thought that you were mine.

But you’re out there now, without me,

And you seem to be doing quite fine.

I used to praise your hands, 

Your body, your heart,

I told them you were unique

But see how you left me alone,

Making me feel like a manic.

Why’d you have to do that?

Tell me, was I that bad?

Come on man! Then why’d you pretend?

You know, you were all I had!

Buddy, I really have some questions

And today I’ll ask all of them!

It still strikes me at my heart,

How you called her a gem!

No, I don’t want no more running,

I am tired of this game.

Pour out you heart today buddy,

Tell me does she make you feel the same?

And what about those times you touched me?

What about when you said you were mine?

Tell me why’d you break me like that?

Did I really cross the line?

No don’t hide away today,

Please answer me, am desperate!

Why’d you leave me when I loved you?

Answer me! You’re running out late!!

-by Tanya Rana

Owe You

Last few days have almost been magic,

I’ve been happier than I have been in ages

Good, bad, ugly, glory, tragic,

Guess I’ve seen almost all stages.

Life has shown me a new blossom this year,

Swiping away all the sorrows of my past

I am glad i finally met you my dear,

I always thought the good times never lasts.

I was so absorbed in him,

He sucked the life out of me

And I can’t even blame him,

Its me, his dark sides I couldn’t see.

Then you appeared with a horse and a harp,

It almost was a fairy tale

Guided me out, killed the demons sharp,

Brought light to the life quite stale.

You held my hand and took me places,

Places I only heard of, never went to

You touched my body on those scars and traces,

Making me believe and fall for you.

I always knew I was on the wrong way,

But too afraid to not walk through

“I’ll make you question your existence”, you say,

And I owe you for that, I do!

-by Tanya Rana

Abolish

I watch you through the window,

I watch you through the gates,

I see you’re slowly backing off

See you are trying to fade.

Is it someone new around?

Or is it a change in priorities?

I guess its a longing for someone else now,

As this happens with majorities.

But would you just throw me away?

Would you simply tell me to leave?

Or will you let the time do it,

Will there be any memories to keep?

I have known you for pretty long now

Long enough to make you weak!

But I really had no idea,

That it was just my attention that you seek.

I still warn you not to go away,

Still think you have time.

We can start it all over again,

You can still call me ‘mine’.

But if you want to leave,

I have no courage to stop you anymore,

Because you left me once back then,

And the wounds are still quite sore!

-by Tanya Rana