Monthly Archives: January 2023

It has been terrible and the ups and downs have wrecked me to an unbelievable extent but I think we have it in control now. The past 6 years have been miserable. Nothing but pure misery. Don’t get me wrong they were not terrible. I was alive and breathing and had friends and had lovers but nothing and no one could fill that one void made by you. And to be honest I didn’t want anyone to. Truth be told I never thought you would be mine again. Curled up in my arms in this room away from our city, sleeping soundly like you once used to. I thought you would have found this comfort somewhere else and he would have been the one for you. I was wrong and I am so glad I was. We still have to tell the world. We broke an enormous number of hearts to get here. I know we did. We left people in the misery that we are scared to be in. But I don’t know. I am not thinking of it right now. I have wanted you all my life and i finally have you. I am not giving you up again and I don’t care if I’m morally or ethically wrong. Love is love. And I love you. I love you so much it stayed like a pinching ache in my chest for the past years I spent without you. You are mine now. And I am yours. We go together. We will forever go together.

You walk in there sat are all my

Friends I love more than life itself

Happy faces, drunk faces

People falling off bed.

As you go you see a side

My dog’s presence in every corner

He is the bearer of the torch

The one to protect me from all horrors.

As you walk along you spot

My family I have bittersweet ties with

Mostly in a set manner

Formality is in our seed.

Walking down you see a street

One darker than the others

But as you reach there you realize

The light from the street of lovers.

Moving on moving on

There is a special place for grandma

She has her tiny kitchen in there

Making me my favorite oat bars.

Then you reach a spot where

There’s a big board of pictures

My best friend, current and over the years

Hanging by the fixtures.

 As we reach the archives section

You’ll see things you’d rather not

From happy to sad and weeping to mad

That is one overwhelmingly emotional spot.

Walking down to the final lane you’ll see

An ashen-ed, burnt-up place down the road

That place once belonged to him

Before he set fire to the whole damn board.