I want a boy best friend
One I could run to for a hug
One when he sees me in a dress, he shrugs
I’ve lived my whole life with one
So it’s difficult to live with none.
Don’t get me wrong I have enough people in my life
Roles, they play roles, keeping me safe from words and knives
But there is this one, an inevitable role
Just one that is capable to fill this dark hole.
And I understand nature, I’m smart enough
For a man and a woman, to be friends is tough
And no I don’t expect him to see me as a sister
Don’t expect him to be good friends with my mister.
I want him to be feared from
I want him to feel like a second home
For when my life is falling apart
He helps straighten my shoulders, good at his part.
I want him to care like I’m his lost treasure
I want him to stick around for moments more than leisure
I want him to recognize people who are good for me
But bear the capability to torture out the truth for me.
I want a man so strong who is ready to go on a war
Barely by seeing me trying to hide a scar
I want us to talk about love and be in it too
But realizing the world would burn down lovers like us two.
And I want his hugs to be therapeutic more than my mother’s
I want a man who’s my strength even if he’s sworn to another
And I might come across as selfish trying to wish for such things
But I want him to be the place to run to when love stings.
I want him to have the courage to kill people for me
And the world, the protection in his eyes it sees
For a lover will never be able to fulfill that role
No other will ever be able to fill that big a hole.
And you might wonder if I’m willing to give the same
Dont doubt me for a second as I know if the need came
I’ll burn everything to the ground for his smile
To wipe a tear, I’ll run a thousand miles.
And people would doubt if we are cheating on our partners
We would bother not once to explain it to people charmers
The kind of bond I wish we could share
For once to be comfortable with a foreign man’s stare.
Poetry In My Veins 