I wake up to the noise of my neighbors’ pet
My pillow soaked up with my regrets
I look at the timeless clock on the wall
Another day of getting up another day to fall.
I dress myself up in the darkest silk
Fill up a glass of toned milk
I am not ready but I can’t be more
With my hands all shivery and eyes so sore.
I lock my door and step outside
I wave my hand to get a ride
But all I get are judging eyes
Sympathetic smiles and dreadful cries.
I finally get myself a taxi
Make myself comfortable in the backseat
But the driver keeps looking at me through the mirror
As if my face spells out terror.
I look at the sky and the building of my work place
The janitor looks at me and makes a face
And my nightmare starts all over
As I see the boss’s son climb out from his rover.
He doesn’t dare pay me a bare glance
I knew to myself I lost my chance
Of all the lessons I am yet to learn
The biggest is taught by the acid burn.
I walk right inside and a woman gasped
She says, “Oh Dear!” with her hands clasped
Only if you could hear my mind growl
Not only my heart, she broke my soul.
With a heavy heart I walk the stairs
People were staring but come on, who cares?
I put my bag across my seat
When I feel the land slip beneath my feet.
There you are, everyone’s prince charming
Your reaction to the incident is quite alarming
He wrecked my life and you wrecked my heart
Silly me, I thought I finally had a good start.
I swear I was walking down the road
With all the stress and all the work load
He came out of nowhere and held my hand
The minute I looked back I lost command.
He threw the whole bottle right at me
It didn’t take me long to fall to my knees
His job was done and he fled away
I think that’s all I remember from that day.
It took me a whole year to be able to come back
And seems like it was enough time for you to sack
All your promises you made out of love
But sadly, I am no more your little dove.
I squeeze my heart and gulp that feeling
My psychiatrist said that’s the only way of healing.
I think I understand, after all you are the boss’s pride
And a guy so handsome needs a fancy bride
It burns worse than the acid, but I’ll let you go
You no more belong to me, I know.
I pack my things and move outside
A child looked at me and started crying
And without second thought I knew it was time
My life was no more worth a dime.
I rushed straight to home and opened the cupboard
I looked in the mirror and in disgust I was covered
I hesitated for a second but took the pill
My dead body lays rotten in my apartment still.
Poetry In My Veins 