I miss you a little extra on rainy days
I feel like stalking you but I’m afraid to discover
Something capable of crushing my heart once again
Another girl around your arms
It’s not new you know
It’s sour.
Look at you
I’m not supposed to look at you
Peach shirt but whose looking at it
How do you make a color like that work
It’s hideous but I can’t stop looking at it
After all, it’s you.
I don’t regret leaving you
I’m sure neither do you
Still, this wound comes to life every time it rains
As if years-old stitches hurt again in winters
My heart doesn’t let you go
My mind wouldn’t let me show
What have we done love
Have you ever heard the word love sound so hollow?
I’m fine, I know you don’t wonder
But I do though
It’s tough, just like we thought
It’s been a while since I cried thinking of you
Hindi songs would have suited you so nicely
Only if I had the courage to tell you how my heart
Sang them out of joy seeing you
I thought it was cringe, I still do.
I was afraid of you, you know
I felt inferior, shadowed by you
I let that get to me and not you
I don’t like what I’m feeling
Sour is not my favorite taste anymore
Do you remember that?
Do you remember anything?
I don’t write anymore you know
Because doesn’t matter what I start with
It ends with you
Every poem, every prose, everything I would ever write
Will forever be about you
It’s dark out here in the real world
I wanted to tell you I got the job.
I wanted to tell you I got rid of the tag
My father encrypted on my skin
I wanted to tell you I found the courage to accept
When I make mistakes
I want to tell you so many things
Do you wanna hear them?
No? ok.
Pritam sings ‘tum se hi’ and your face flashes in front of me
It has never been true before
Or has been true all this time
I don’t know actually
When it comes to you, nothing makes sense
I hate you most of the days
But I love you when it rains
I love you so much when it rains.
Poetry In My Veins 