Accepting It

Today, I saw you with her again,

Hand in hand, walking all sweetly

Your face was glowing like a bulb,

My body twisted in response.

Chest ached; belly dropped!

But this time, my mind didn’t fight,

This time, no more making it right,

This time, I won’t give you any looks,

No, this time, no more mind stories to cook.

And it’s not because I am so strong,

I have never been strong when it comes to you

Its because I’m getting so weak,

Maybe its time to accept the truth!

Cause I’m tired of trying,

Trying every day every night.

I guess its enough, it hurts to realize,

Its just me coming back for you every time.

Its so sick how one day we’re perfect,

And next day we are barely strangers.

And its sick how every now and then,

Its only me whose putting on these efforts.

And I didn’t know how much more I can take,

Inside, I am already in pieces.

And all you ever do is sit there, 

And watch me burn to ashes.

But now I feel really tired buddy,

You see, I don’t try it anymore.

I guess eventually I am accepting it,

Though I should have accepted it long before! 

-by Tanya Rana