The hurt of seeing you
The hurt of hearing your voice
The hurt of not having you around
The hurt of making this hard choice.
I have won big battles in life
And I have lost even bigger ones
But how do I win this battle with my mind reminiscing
Seeing your happy face during lunch.
I never really believed you were the one
But I put my blood sweat and tears to make you that
We were miles away from being perfect
But perfection is an over-exaggerated cap.
I started my day with a glance at your text
My day ended with your sweet goodnight
I know there were days it was hard to trust
But how could you give up without one last fight?
Weren’t you the one to get my dirty jokes?
People were scared to talk shit about me in front of you
Wasn’t I the one to be there right from the beginning?
I was there when you had twenty friends, was there when you had two.
Don’t worry I don’t cry my eyes out anymore
And my appetite is fine, thanks for asking
It’s just that I see you in my dreams and wake up short of breath
Do you have any clue of the hurt I’m masking?
Come back here, don’t you dare ignore my tears
I was forever there to wipe off yours
I just can’t wrap my head around the fact
How roughly our beautiful thing ran its course.
You made such big promises all along the way
Said you would stay no matter what
Now I walk down alone to the metro line
Scared to see you, keeping my eyes wide shut.
How could you do so much and put it on me
Replace me in a month like I wasn’t worth a dime
Because out of sight and out of mind
Is the biggest lie of all times.
This hurt of not seeing you
This hurt of not hearing your voice
This hurt of not having you around
My hurt that you seem to rejoice.
Poetry In My Veins 