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Poems

I think I saw your eyes in CP today

Starlike gaze, staring right through me

I wasn’t mad or afraid this time

I wasn’t me this time.

I thought a lot in the past two months

Our ups and downs, our smiles and frowns

I still have a couple of letters lying around for you

One I wrote at my highest high, other at my lowest low.

This poem is so raw I can’t even seem to rhyme it

Yet my hands see no reason to stop writing

But I swear this is not another diss track

Just a child trying very hard to sound adult.

There are a lot of times when I miss you unconsciously

Like the times when I wake up from my evening nap

Or times when I achieve something thinking of how

Your appreciation alone would make my day.

I think love is more like waves of an ocean

They hit you back and forth but leave you soaking forever

And the ship of integrity floats till it floats

Before sinking in the dark undiscovered rubble.

I think you’ll still be here in a hundred years

Reading my silly poems out of fear

The fear of breaking that endless string

The string that forever connects you and me.

I’ll forever miss the way your thumb

Traced my little finger while holding my hand

And the way you smiled so secretly

When I adored you with words you said you didn’t like.

Maybe one of these days I’ll think of you for the last time

And let you go for once and for all

Maybe I’ll stop staring down from this cliff of hoax

And be brave enough to jump or trust the fall.

I hope you stay kind like the day I fell for you

And your will stays strong like the day you turned me down

I hope you see in someone what I saw in you

And she doesn’t end up writing poems about you two.

I know things have gone too far and hope is a threat

And if you think closely, maybe this is for the best

I want you to know I have absolutely no regrets

I’ll forever remember you fondly even though you put me to test.

My Kingdom

She steps on the stage and the crowd goes silent

Most of them remember her from an age rather violent

But for me, I have something more to recall

She wrecked us, she ruined us, it was all her fault.

This school reunion brings back some memories

Some good ones, some bad, some I’d rather leave buried

She used to be a shining star back then

I used to be hers, she’d be mine back then.

She clears her throat, smiles faintly as she begins

My age-old wounds are surfacing again

“Long time no see people, how are you all?

I hope life has been kind to you through the last falls.

This place used to mean the world to me

Your faces, in my dreams I used to see

I recall laughing till our stomachs gave out

I recall us being funny teens, tall and stout

We took a lot away from this place,

A different memory for everyone

But do you know what I took away?

A little of good times, a lot of worse

Heart-breaking moments, lost love and trust

They say it takes hands to kill a man

But it takes a heart to kill a kingdom

Trust me, I would know it

I lost both my man and my kingdom.

When we got out of here, things were still fine

Once in 6 months, we would get together and dine

But with time, some gained arrogance

Some lost feelings and started finding new friends

And I knew it would happen, intuition housed my bones

I knew it was a matter of time they’d be bygones

It was still bearable though, at least I had my man

‘The rest couldn’t make it, but I think we can!’

Who knew our foundation was even weaker

It was built on a couple of liars and attention seekers

And yes, we ended things soon after

We knew we had to when tears replaced laughter.

I know my ways are infamous but I swear I tried

Made effort till the moment the blood in my bones dried

But he got a whiff of some foreign girl’s pack

He started craving it, I knew he wasn’t coming back.

I was so afraid of the end, I missed the middle

All of his silly jokes, pick-up lines, and riddles

He went from being a safe spot to a sore spot to no spot at all

And that’s how ladies and gents, this Humpty had her fall.

Years passed by and so did the mood swings

I found new people to patch my broken wings

They helped me back on my foot, lend a hand

And years later I am strong enough to say, Hey, Best Friend,

Remember I used to talk about standing at the porch, watching the rainfall?

I made it, I made it all!”

She ends it with a smile, but discomfort on my body crawls

I wrecked us, I ruined us, it was all my fault.