Breaking Me

You walked in with her like you walked in with me,

I know your hand is intentionally around her waist;

And I know it is for me to see,

And god curse me if I ever despise your taste.

She is holding your arm as a gesture of affection,

Or maybe it was a way to say you belong to her;

And its obvious you’re the crowd’s attention,

Which for me, only made the situation worse.

You look at her with glitter in your eyes,

A little while ago, you looked at me that way;

She turns to me to break the ice,

My dark blue sky turns the darkest gray.

She talks in her sweet voice, “I’ve heard a lot about you”,

But my eyes search for you as you come by;

She makes a gesture for you to introduce,

You take her hand and talk a little shy.

Your eyes are set on my hands,

She is noticing your every move;

Of course, you are the king of the determined lands,

I always admired that and I still do.

She laughs hysterically and her eyes are adorable,

Her skin looks as soft as if made of feathers;

And here its me testing if I’m capable,

And for how long my heart can be tethered.

I make an excuse and get rid of your sight,

It’s a mixed feeling of heart-break, betrayal and horror;

Just a few months ago, I thought I had it right,

But today you’re at the piano playing a song for her.

You sing the most beautiful song you ever wrote,

In a crowd of hundreds, your eyes are set on her;

Last year it was me, same place, time, even the keynote,

But today I’m the crowd and she’s the one to refer.

I’m in the yard, sitting on the cold swing,

Thinking how your lies were so obvious;

All the thing you promised me, its for her, you’re doing,

What a poetic way of you to mock us.

Your eyes start searching as soon as I’m out of sight,

Maybe your cold, dark heart realized it was too much;

You come out to talk to make things right,

I smile, venomously saying, “There’s no thing as such”.

I can see your hand lifting to pat my shoulder,

I already recoil at the thought of your touch;

I pick up my clutch, my phone, I feel colder,

I walk away from the world’s best Bruch.

You watch me leave and sit in my car,

Your face so still with no worry in the world;

This was you breaking me the worst so far,

There was not a single word you hurled.